Just another blog. Open heart surgery or worldwide therapy for me. 2026-09-09T00:00:00Z https://xyz.ckg.fyi/ chan c@ckg.fyi 2026-09-09T00:00:00Z https://xyz.ckg.fyi/hello-world <h2 id="what-is-this" tabindex="-1">What is this <a class="header-anchor" href="https://xyz.ckg.fyi/hello-world">#</a></h2> <p>Well, I'm a human. Let's call me 'Chan'.</p> <p>This is the first time I've ever posted anything on the internet. Well, almost.</p> <p>[There's this one blog post from way way back.] (https://chandankgupta.blogspot.com/2009/02/what-ive-learned.html)</p> <p>I maybe wrote a couple of testimonials on Orkut. One single poke on Facebook. A few likes, retweets, and Wordle score on Twitter/X. And a few private stories on Instagram for close friends only. Nothing else, as myself.</p> <blockquote> <p>The point though is - <strong>I have always held back.</strong></p> </blockquote> <p>And it's only hurt me. As I'm sure it will anyone with a similar composition as myself.</p> <p>Hence, this. A place where I'll practice penning my thoughts.</p> <h2 id="reason" tabindex="-1">Reason <a class="header-anchor" href="https://xyz.ckg.fyi/hello-world">#</a></h2> <p>I was going to write the reasons for being like this - but you see, there's the problem right there. The goal of this particular post is not to write down reasons - but to introduce myself, this blog, set a goal, and move on to the next thing.</p> <p>F 'em reasons.</p> <h2 id="goal" tabindex="-1">Goal <a class="header-anchor" href="https://xyz.ckg.fyi/hello-world">#</a></h2> <p>Since I've identified the cause - I must now fix it. Writing into the open web will, I'm quite certain, slowly but surely reduce my inhibitions.</p> <p>Goal is simple - speed, and no fear. Further than I already have been. Much much further.</p> <h2 id="the-contradiction" tabindex="-1">The Contradiction <a class="header-anchor" href="https://xyz.ckg.fyi/hello-world">#</a></h2> <p>Speed, and no fear, is basically how I drive a car. I love racing. But I'm starting to realise, even there I've room to go further.</p> <h2 id="why-now" tabindex="-1">Why now <a class="header-anchor" href="https://xyz.ckg.fyi/hello-world">#</a></h2> <p>So far in my life, I've used many crutches to overcome this fear - something I'm quite sure, everyone has - to go above and beyond.</p> <p>And with those crutches, I've done it, on many occasions. But crutches only get you so far. I speak metaphorically of course, and of crutches for the mind.</p> <p>Now I don't have the option to use any of those crutches. Nor were they going to get me where I needed to go.</p> <p>So here it is. I'm back down to just will. That I've enough and more of.</p> <p>Let's go internet!</p>